I've been giving up on myself lately and trying to throw all this away but I'm going to try to start coming back now.
I've been giving up on myself because I've been having a hard time lately with my epilepsy and I always get mad at myself when I come to the thought of how easy I have it it's just not fair ,not for me, but for them. The others with epilepsy they can't even go out of the hospital and see the world with their own eyes without having a seizure or even see an animal by not looking at a book but my actively seeing them , just because they can't leave. A hospital is converting and filled with loving doctors and nurses this is true, but it is hard to take in that they may not be able to see correctly or even think straight or mostly walk again or never before. And I have epilepsy and just sit there and don't do anything active I just sit. And I feel guilty for not helping.so I'm going to make a week to help the people with epilepsy and ( of course if it is ok with the perents and inside the hospital) and be a friend to them and do what there favorite thing to do is with them that they can't do very much and I want to embrace a smile on my face and there's when I am able to make them happy and forget about the pain they are suffering.